Just Dreams ..

Ever since I was very young, I've always dreamed of becoming a dancer, actress or anything else that had to do with arts. In the beginning, my parents thought it would just pass by, since nothing lasts. However, I demonstrated them that I truly wanted to become a dancer and started taking dancing classes. It was very nice and refreshing; but after some time, I started becoming tired .. I've also had some health problems during that period so I dropped out. Now, after 3 years, I really regret it. 
What would have happened if I remained there? Why didn't I remain there? These kinds of questions are always going around my head. My parents would always ask me, What do you want to become in life .. ? Haha, this question is so hard to answer. Who I wanna be? What I wanna become? Questions I still don't know the answer exactly .. but I believe I will be someone, because I'm fighting for it. Dancing and acting were, are and will always be my passions. But .. does my future has to do anything with these two things I like? I don't know. I will have to wait and see. But until then, I will never give up. Going on stage and dancing until I have no life in me ... is what calms me down. Everytime when I'm happy, sad, excited, wild, hurt, arrogant, pessimistic or whatever I would feel at that moment, I would just dance. Dance until late at night .. and I'm okay with that ..  since you have to fight for your dreams, not just sit there and watch others taking your place. Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anyone else expects of you. Never excuse yourself. Of course, practice makes perfect so you have to practice yourself in little things, and thence proceed to greater.

Everyone has naturally the power of excelling in some one thing and this is one of the best things a man can have it. ;)

Never give up! Fight because you can do it. Everyone can do it .... 

 

Life is like a ... crazy ride ..

[Happy New Year 2011] 

It's been some time since I haven't posted ... right? Haha. Late Happy New Year .. ! XD Been busy :(:(.

These days, I've been in a .. hard stage of life. And I don't mean something really hard and sad .. most like .. hurtful.

Since little, I've been a good girl ... and I mean it! I never smoke and if I ever did, I was just trying, I never get drunk .. since I'm a strong when it comes to alcohol .. and I was never on drugs! And I hope I will never be .. this is what I want, of course. About boyfriends ... I only had 4 relationships until now ... However, being so nice and kind to everyone, some mistook me for a naive girl and started telling bad things about me. Everything started in summer 2010 when I started hanging out with some friends whom I knew for two years or more. It was funny in the beginning .. but in late august, I've got in a fight with one of the boys. At first, we were kindly .. ignoring each other but ... it was hard since he liked me and I liked him. Haha^^ Life can be a &*#$@ sometimes .. huh? 

After my best friend went overseas I still hang out with them and without realizing .. I gave them the impression of me being a very naive and stupid girl .. Of course I'm not like that. But my laid-back and calm personality made them think this. School started and bad gossip about me started floating around. Of course I was mad in the beginning and fought with them but they were and still are too immature. Recently I found out that the person who made all this things up was the boy that I liked during summer. Of course I was mad. I wanted to destroy him but I found out he left the country. I was hurt and I still am about all the bad things they said about me. In the beginning I cried because I couldn't understand how me .. a good and nice girl can make other people think bad things about her .. But as time went by I realized that life its unfair and sometimes people who have nothing to do with it, pay .. Right now, I'm immune at these gossips and even if sometimes its still hurts, I learned how to screw them and move on

Its been more than two months since I've last saw my 'friends' and I'm happy even though at my school, two-three colleagues are b*tches. I don't give a damn about them anymore.

But still, I haven't forgot about it and I swear ... I will get my revenge sooner or later .. and it will be so hard that they will beg for forgiveness ... Haha, was I too mean? Sorry...

So, to sum up everything. For those who are in my shoes .. ignore it. The best thing to do about this assholes is to ignore them. Indifference is the worst .. These people who are doing this have no life .. Can you realize how boring their lives must be ? Sure it is.

So, this is my post for today. Right now, I have a bad tooth ache. 

Bye Bye~

Best Friend.

[summer 2010 <3]

Friends. A simple word isn't it? 

It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. 

Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your hearts. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. 

They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. 

You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. 

Friendship is the strangest but greatest thin in the world. 

I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, my tears, my love and my life.

Miss you girl <3 

Worst day + twitter doesn't work!

[preparing for party. Dec 24, 2010]

Bad mood | 

Woke up at 11am, everything went okay. Walking around Ankara .. nothing weird, until we went to a friend hotel here (He's the childhood friend of my mom). Then, I had a fight with his son, T. (17 years old). It started like ... We got bored and decided at the terrace. From there, we could see half of Ankara, very pretty. However, I was a little dizzy (first, because I had just drunk and secondly, I'm afraid of heights) and I wanted to go downstairs, but T. didn't let me (we were playing) and at first it was funny but then it became irritating. I called my brother and he came there too, and tried to make us not fight .. but it became worse. At the end, I left downstairs and directly went in my brother's car .. mom asked me what happened and I told her the truth. Shortly, my brother followed me and we drove off. We arrived here, at the hotel 30 minutes ago (my parents are still at mom's friend) ... just to find out that Twitter doesn't work. No .. actually, it does work but it's over capacity!

What a good day!

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Merry Christmas in Turkey!

[getting ready for the party! Turkey <3]

So, I had said before, I had to leave for Turkey on Dec 25, but since my mom is CRAZY about that country ... we are currently in TURKEY! YAY! So nice~ My father bought me some clothes which I adore^^ <3 My brother - an amazing ring and mom & step-dad a day on the Mall + spa! <3 Gotta love them all <3

So tired. Currently writing from my phone. haha^^ the music is so loud here, can't hear my noisy brother which is a GOOD thing XD 

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Hard day & Injure!

[nails w/ heart <3]

7 PM and I'm home! Today was a very hard day, since I woke up and 6am, after falling asleep at 3am, haha^^ Anyway, after leaving the house at 6:45 am, I arrived at the practice and started the rehearsals. At 10am we were ready and left for the first performance! in a contest, and we got second place - couldn't beat the hot boys haha^^ At 12:00, another dance perf was up and we didn't won anything since it wasn't a contest. Something like a festival .. a dancing one haha^^

At 3:40pm we had to be on the stage but because of some malfunction with the stage and our perf was delayed for almost 10 minutes - I'm lucky right? :( Anyway, we finished but as we were about to get off the stage, it collapsed again! and I was the only one injured! Luckily, the ambulance was there and they said nothing is wrong but still, tomorrow, I should go and do a check up on my left side of the body, especially my hand since it hurts like hell! The staff and the company apologized for the malfunction  ...

I found my other dig camera but *sob* it has some problems and doesn't film well! Damn the luck! XD 

Tomorrow, I will meet with my dad, in order to give me his Christmas present .. Since my parents are divorced, I have to share my time with both of them <3. Whatever, love you mom&dad <3 and step-dad too <3 hahaXD

On top of all this, I have a tooth that hurts ! :( Have to go to the dentist ! Quickly !!! hahaXD

Currently listening to 

Tasha - GoodBye Sadness, Hello Happiness. She's amazing O.o definitively, my role model & idol. !!

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Things I like & dislike about me + Dig Camera!

[school~ early november 2010] 

Yey! Since I told you I wanted to get for Christmas a digital camera .. well, I forgot that I have ANOTHER camera, yey! I still can't believe how I forgot about it x.X So, the possibility of posting some videos on YT is high . XD

haha, anyway, I wrote on my previous post that I will do a article called Things I like & dislike about me. 

So, i will start!

Things that I like : 

• funny, creative

• responsible

• optimistic

• cheerful

• active 

• animal loving

• flexible

• individualistic

• strong minded

Things that I dislike :

• cold (at the first glance. everyone tells me thing ..)

•  childish 

• way too straightforward

• too crazy

• noisy

• self-centered

• too curious & interested in everything

• sometimes lazy

• moody

So, this is it! haha^^ 

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